Justice will come

Death initiated by another person is a death no one would wish for.

Clock was almost hitting midnight, I was lazily laying around, waiting for sleep to come by and visit my spirit. Mom was sitting, already asleep in front of the noisy television. Her phone rings, she awakens. I hear a soft scream, made not of fear but of panic. Of lost. As she ended the called she told me who called, it was my aunt. My cousin died. Gunshot through his head. Shot from the back.

Someone wanted him dead, and made sure that if they take a chance to take him down, he would not have the chance to live.


They checked his phone to see who was the last person to call him, the person who made him wait outside their house before he was shot. Nothing. He made sure his family will be safe. He deleted everything before we saw anything.

This happened more than a month ago and I'm still shaking as I relay and replay the story in my head. I love my cousin. He's the only kuya figure that I had. I love him but I never really got to say that, never even gave him a hug. A real hug. Not even a bro hug. No one's going to invite me to have some beer and cigarettes and weed every family reunion. No one's going to threaten my ex/boyfriend anymore. He used to tell me he'd beat the living shit out of the guy who'll hurt me. I love that very kuya over-protectiveness. It  made me laugh, but it made me feel safe. I'll never get to feel that again.

Just today though, mom told me that the guy who shot my cousin was fund dead two days after he killed my cousin. Bye sir, burn. in. hell. But we still do not know who ordered him to kill my cousin. Justice will come.

This morning, my mother woke me up with the news that one of my HS batch mates and co-Thomasian was found dead. Killed. Multiple stabs. Around 50.

And she just went out to get some barbecue.

What the fuck is wrong with people nowadays? How can people kill other beings? She was just starting a life of her own then someone else takes it, feeling like his some god. Justice will come. Soon. I hope.

Tonight, I'll be praying for their souls together with all the souls I know and miss who passed on before them. Tonight I will pray for all the souls to find peace. To find justice for those lives that were taken by cruel souls. Tonight and always. As often as I could.